i say the words ‘im crying’ an awful lot but tbh the last time i cried was like 2k7
“Party In the U.S.S.R.” by Miley Czyrovanjkovich
i am afraid i can’t help you very much about this, lovely. i barely manage to deal with my own ~relationship troubles, so i don’t think i am the best person to ask for an advice, especially as i do neither know you nor the guy in question. the only thing i can tell you is that i’ve come to believe that it is better to do something, and then regret it, than not to do something, and then wondering what would have happened. i mean, you always have to stay safe and take care of yourself first, but why not to give yourself the possibility to begin something new? you can always break up with this person if you don’t like how he acts toward you. personally, i don’t believe people can actually change, but maybe he only acts like that to make himself look more interesting. maybe if you spend some more time with him, you will realize that he is not the kind of person you like to hang out with anyway. or maybe you will realize he is actually a great guy and you get along really well. you can’t know unless you try. you already know he might hurt you, so you can easily use some precautions. i’ve been in a similar situation as you with my current ~boyfriend: he had a lot of girls before me, and my best friend was afraid he would have only used me. i decided to give him a chance (well, actually i whined and been a paranoid for quite some time before actually giving him a chance, but this does not matter in the grand scheme of things), and… well. let’s just say that there was nothing to worry about. obviously things may be different for you, but, again, how can you know if you don’t take the risk? you just have to remember that, no matter what he does or says, it doesn’t change who you are as a person. your worth does not depend on him, and even if you end up being hurt, you can choose to use this as a tool to grow and learn more about yourself and others too.
i am sorry if what i wrote does not make much sense, but i really hope everything works out for the best for you! <3
a reminder to myself and, maybe, to others too:
it is okay to be sad. learning to accept sadness and acknowledging it is perfectly healthy, while constantly avoiding it, faking smiles, and never accepting to be in pain, only makes things worse.
indulging into sadness, though, can be very dangerous.
do not use your sadness to insulate yourself. do not use your sadness to blind yourself. do not use your sadness to avoid what scares you. holding onto the thought of those things, people, and emotions that make you sad is only going to hurt you even more.
aw, you’re too sweet, my dearest! :) and i think you should really see a doctor. i understand that you are anxious about that because it’s the same for me, but i am sure a gynecologist can give you much better advices! they will also make sure that everything is alright, and eventually put you on the pill if you need that to get your period back. plus, the visit itself is not actually that bad. and you can’t avoid it forever anyway, because, even if you’re not sexually active, you should get checked every once in a while, so… if you want my opinion, i think you should see a gynecologist, or at least get a blood test done!
besides, you have to remember that it takes time for your body to get itself to work properly again. your weight may have stabilized, and your intake may be flawless with respect to your needs, but it may take a little for everything to get back to normal, especially after such a long time of being without your period. just as it happened to you, i did not get mine for about one year, and then i had to wait about two-three months after weight restoration (and by weight restoration i mean that my weight had stabilized after eating even more than 3000 calories) before having my period back. you simply have to wait, keep nourishing and taking care of yourself, and don’t worry. seeing a doctor may be helpful because, once they make sure it’s just a matter of time, you can relax and being relaxed definitely helps our body finding its balance again. which ultimately means getting your period back!
i hope i could help, but feel free to ask me anything if i forgot something! good luck with your recovery, sweetie, you did so well, i really hope you are proud of yourself! <3